I’m not a big new year’s resolution girl. They are often big, enormous lifestyle changes that one tries to change in one day. Every year I do a little one, just for fun, though. Last year, I resolved to not go to WalMart. I did pretty well, up to December. I went three times from January until November, and then THREE TIMES in December alone.
Last year, I saw a bunch of blog posts about picking a word for the year. It’s kinda like a resolution, but I like to think of it as more of an in depth study or priority shift. I remember reading one on Hope, one on Patience, one on Joy. When a situation came up, these authors or moms, whatever, were going to try and change their reflex attitudes. I don’t know if I missed the Cool Bus (AGAIN) but I haven’t seen any posts like that this year from some of my fav bloggers.
While I think most resolutions are kinda tacky, I love the fact that this is a new year. A new, fresh start. It says that His mercies are new every morning (Lamentations 3:23), but I have such a hard time feeling new on the Wednesday of a bad, hurried week. That swamped, tired, overwhelmed feeling can just cover the whole month. For me, this December has been a time to reflect and see where changes need to be made. My life is kinda easy in the way that I really get to choose most of my day. My schedule is made by me, and the children follow my lead. We eat meals at the same time every day, we school at the same time. This gives me great freedom, but I can easily become a slave to bad habits and routine. I recently read the book, “Large Family Logistics” by Kim Brenneman which really changed how I look at our days, and I am seeing some underlying issues that need to be worked out. I see this week as a time to just revamp my thinking and my attitude. A fresh new spring in the middle of a very bleak winter.
So, my word for 2014 is PRESENCE. In my life I need more of this. I need to bask in God’s presence every morning, before I start my day. Even if it is for 30 seconds, I can’t let the fact that a bad night or a late morning totally shifts my priorities. Even if it is only two or three verses to mediate on while I begin doling out milk cups and hooking up my coffee drip, I need that and I cannot let it slide. I can’t let my all-or-nothing attitude change how I NEED my Jesus in the early morning. Breakfast is a priority. Whether we have full out homemade waffles with fruit sauce and bacon, or Cheerios in the car on a super busy day, or anything in between, I make sure that we have something. I must put my Daily Bread in the same category.
The second part is being in my own PRESENCE. I am always thinking, organizing in my head, replaying things I forgot, really the list is endless. I can’t count how many times I look up to see the Funny One talking to me, and I HAVE NO IDEA what he said. Or being on the phone, dealing with an errant child as well as talking to a friend in turmoil. I’m always missing out on one of them. I am so tired of having to apologize to the kids when they have to say something more than once. And my phone?! Don’t get me started on the life distraction that is. I curse the day I got that darned thing, because my life is changed and it’s hard to get back to the way it was.
So this year I am going to concentrate on being in God’s presence, and the presence of those around me, as much as I can. If it means scheduling less to cut back on texts, messages and emails, then by golly, that’s what I’m going to do. I am going to be here, in the present, even if I would rather be on facebook, or in my “multi-task box,” or frankly, my “nothing box.” I don’t know if I’ll get more done or less done, but I will be there, at least.
So what’s your word for 2014? What’s an area you have been waiting for an excuse to change? I would love to hear about it! And for the record, this blog was not edited by my HH, so there might be more mistakes than normal. And a “by golly” or “hokey doodle.” He tries to take those out when he can.